Muslimah Itu

Assalamualaikum..

Muslimah itu,
Terkadang gelak kuat tak henti-henti,
Terkadang juga minum berdiri,
Terkadang sebelum tidur terlupa baca doa dan ayat Kursi,
Terkadang pakai stoking mula dari kaki kiri,
Terkadang aci redah sarung kasut orang lain tanpa di sedari.

Muslimah itu,
Terkadang gembira sampai terlompat terkinja sambil senyum tayang gigi,
Terkadang air matanya menitis laju tak terperi,
Terkadang rasa lemah sampai tak mampu nak bangun-bangun lagi,
Terkadang rasa marah menguasai diri,
Sampai rasa nak lempang orang tu laju-laju without mercy.

Muslimah itu,
Adalah manusia biasa,
Yang tak lari dari segala bagai perasaan sebagai manusia,
Yang tak lari dari segala macam ujian dan pancaroba,
Yang tak lari dari perasaan lemah dan tak bermaya,
Yang tak lari dari buat khilaf salah dan dosa
Kerana apa?
Kerana dia juga manusia biasa.

Apa-apa pun,
Yang pastinya,
Muslimah itu,
Sentiasa bangkit bila terjatuh,
Sentiasa cuba gembirakan orang lain walau hatinya sendiri remuk,
Sentiasa cuba untuk improve diri,
Dari semasa ke semasa tanpa henti,
Walau terkadang dia tersungkur,
Itu bukan kerana dia lemah,
Tapi itu kerana dia cuba ambil masa untuk bangkit semula,
Jadi kuat dari sebelumnya,
Kerana dia berusaha,
Untuk menjadi bidadari dunia,
Dan juga di akhirat sana.

-Shared from Super Akhawat

Midnight Post

Salam..

          Hello blog.. It's 12.58 a.m at the moment when I would normally sleep after I did my revision. That's in the case of study week otherwise it will be a lot earlier with the bed keeps seducing me at all times. *sleepy head. Oh yeah..I've done with my last paper just now in the morning. 

Hooray? Not really.. Knowing the real challenge begins next week kinda break my nerves. Yes it's the beginning of semester 2 where I will encounter the real patients plus abundance of hard subjects to digest. Other than that, I've got lots of events and programmes to handle during the weekends. Hmm.. guess I need to stop being indifferent and be more well-organized. May the spirits last till the end. Ameen... The three weeks break is gonna end soon and I have several things to do in mind before the classes start in which one of them is to hit the kitchen! 

Last three days, we went to celebrate Mek Chah's birthday as well as escaping from the exam mode for a moment. As usual it was a potluck type dinner and we the 'anak dara' prepared a tiramisu and carbonara with tagliatelle. The other food were also amazing and that's why I'd always like to grab a chance to gather with the Malaysians. Hehe..

Mek Chah is one-year-old now

That's it. Till we meet again blog. I can't write longer because my eyes are half opened right now. Huhu.. Goodnight UKrians and good morning Malaysians :)

Till the, assalamualaikum.

Headache

Salam..

        As an optometry student, headache would be a very familiar aspect in our study. Basically you can tell the type of headache based on its location, onset, frequency and severity. The process of classifying the headache in regards to those aspects is called differential diagnosis. It's very important to diagnose what has really caused the headache in order to determine whether the patient needs further referral or maybe just a self treatment.

I'm not gonna list down every single type of headache I've learnt. I'm just writing this since I'm currently having a constant head pain on the temporal side and around the eyes. The pain usually begins at the end of the day, probably because I've already worn out by that time. I would usually avoid any pain relief like paracetamol or ibuprofen as long as I can still get hold onto the pain. Nothing would be helping at that moment rather than lying in the dark room. Honestly, I have no idea what could be the best possible type of headache it is but looking at the symptoms I have, it might be a migraine or asthenopia (headache due to the uncorrected refractive error).

Just now in the evening I had an eye examination at the eye clinic and I kind sort of complaining of my headache. Since my field of view and the intraocular pressure were absolutely fine, the supervisor could only suggest it might be due to the under corrected refractive error because my current spectacle itself is not to the latest prescription. For that case and at the same time using the benefit of an optom student to get a 40% discount, I ordered a new pair of glasses (heheheh). Anyhow, if the symptoms persist, she'd like me to see the GP for a confirmation.

That's it for the headache... and below is a different story :)

Last night, we went to Leeds to celebrate one of our usrahmates, Kak Hanis before she's back to Malaysia for good. It was just a small gathering at an Arabian restaurant. What I like about the restaurant is they give us the option whether to sit at the table or on the floor and the food were served in a tray. It's rarely found in the UK unless if we get involved with any events with the Malaysians. The food was nice but a bit pricey I guess.

Mandy rice

That is Kak Hanis, the one with the glasses on. I adore her in a way that she has always come out with many brilliant ideas in the usrah. I love to listen to her points, particularly when she relates the content in the Quran with the reality in life.

Dunya and akhirah are not of two separate things, thus we've got to make them two balanced. That's how I define great people, those with great knowledge and balance between dunya and akhirah. I used to ask two separate person on how to have a great knowledge of akhirah and interestingly, they both gave me the same answers which are :

1. Referring Al-quran and sunnah

2. Attending 'majlis ilmu'

3. Other reading materials, books etc 

4. Based on our experiences and others

No one was initially born as a smart cookie. It takes steps to reach to that point, right?

"Kejarlah akhirat, dunia akan mengikutimu"

Till then, Assalamualaikum

My Routine

Assalamualaikum...

            My health condition is not at its best at the moment. I'm currently having a full package of sickness that the fever comes along with the flu, cough and headache. It's been over a week yet they have not shown any signs of recovery. Sobbss.. Takpelah, seandainya sakit itu pengubat dosa. In syaa Allah.. The condition get worse since I'd been ignoring it. I should have had a rest and I wanted to but the situation just didn't allow me to do so. Abundance of things came passed by and I had a rough time just to keep everything in place.

 Now I admit that the second year is a lot hectic than it was during the first year especially during Monday when the lectures end up at 4 p.m and as soon after that I need to take my turn to cook for dinner. The next following day is a bit free and Wednesday is when I love the most because of the practicals themselves.

Anyway, life is not always easy. Friday is when I always have the same terrible feeling. Supposedly it has to be a day full of barakah and it actually is but the COCS (Clinical Optometry and Communication Skills) practical had always made my heart skipped a beat. *or two beats maybe? Having a thought of dealing with the supervisor alone could agitate my sleep. It is basically a practical that I'd done before during the first year but what makes it different this year is that we are going to be assessed by the supervisor throughout the routine and they will rate us whether competent or incompetent. Initially I was chasing for that competent level and how I always felt bad whenever I was not able to achieve so. But as time goes on, I've realized that the feeling of contentment is not only when I get competent but it could be as well when I've prepared enough and tried my best or the supervisor will at least gave a compliment even though they did not rate me that competent level. After all, it's not the result that you achieve, but it's what you learn throughout the process that matters, right?

I'm happy that my schedule is now packed. It means I will have less oversleep time (selalunye kan terlebih tido.hehe..) and less thought of unnecessary things and less shopping in which I usually do once a week but now since my house is a long way from the city, it has somehow lessen the desire to spend. Thank God for that!!

Till then, Assalamualaikum

Eid Mubarak 2013

Salam..

      How's your Eid everyone? hehe.. Mine was great. Alhamdullillah.. Being surrounded by beautiful friends and seniors made it feels like home. Excitingly we celebrated it twice, one was on Tuesday and the other one was during the weekend.

We've got a 3 hours lecture on Tuesday starting from 11.00 a.m, so there were plenty of time to perform our prayer at the mosque but unfortunately as soon as we arrived they had just finished. Sobss.. and we just sat there listening to the khutbah. It's every woman's problem I guess to consume many hours to get herself ready.. well occasionally maybe :D  *hari rayalah katakan..

Since it was our very first time wearing baju kurung to lectures, it's kinda compulsory to have some shots aite?? ngeh3...

Gadis-gadis bunga

We did skip one of the lectures on that day without the feeling of guilty since it's allowable. hehe.. That's the bonus of studying in Bradford where the Pakistani forms a major population in here.

Kak Baini's open house

Today's event was fun as well but since the laziness is empowering me at this moment so let the pictures do the talking!

The hungry faces

The people

Fahim with his own gwiyomi style haha

Lovely Aisha

Till then.. Assalamualaikum..

Back to Reality

Salam...

        It has been two weeks since I left Malaysia which also means I'm now back to reality. The classmates had been asking me how was my summer break and they could imagine how excited I was to be able to get along with the family. Yes.. undeniably the well-spent time with the family was precious but that 3 months break was torturing me as well. Laying on bed at all times until I reached to a point where I could stare at the ceiling for 2 consecutive hours. How would that be?

So when the time to leave Malaysia was approaching, I had been experiencing mixed feelings. Part of me felt miserable to leave my homeland (even pergi KL pun rasa sedih nak tinggal parents ) and the other part felt eager to start a new productive life abroad. heheh.. even though we had been given an earlier caution that the second year is going to be a lot busier than before, still to get right back on the track is a relief.  

In celebrating our homecoming, we had a dinner at Lahore as well as celebrating the Septemberians, both birthday girl and the belated ones *nak jugak...We had also moved in to our new house which I think a lot comfy and safer even though it takes a longer time to reach the uni. In short, all is well for now. I'm happy to be back.

Just a couple of days before the class started, I'd got a problem with my state of health. It was something I'd never experienced and the pain was killing me regardless of the pain killers I'd taken. Happened to be, the process of seeing a doctor was a bit complicated since I wasn't sure who my GP is and it is the policy in the UK that you need to be registered under your own clinic before you get the treatment. It's totally different to Malaysia where you can just walk in to any clinics or hospitals you want providing your pocket or wallet is full :D 

The other excitement to be back is to meet a junior of our naqibah, the cute little Suhail.. The babysitters were delighted to look for a new winter outfit for Suhail. Sebenarnya x sabar nak jadi mak sebab baju baby semua comel2. huhu..

Till then, Assalamualaikum..

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Salam..

Pain. No matter how deep it is, no matter how long it takes, it will eventually end. Just give the heart some times and everything will be just fine. The same goes to happiness. They both eventually end too. 

So the question is, how do we adapt with these different phase of life as they will just alternate randomly. As for me, I keep reminding myself to be moderate, to always stay in the middle.This is like standing on a safe side in which whenever life offers you either happiness or pain, you are hardly being too immersed with the situation you are currently in. As so you will be easily letting it go whenever the time comes. 

To my dismay, I've grown up to be someone who do not much care of things happening around me which has much less affected me in making decisions. Not that I didn't care at all but sometimes... I feel like why do I have to constantly think of the same things when everything is going to end fairly soon. You've got to live your life no matter what happens. I never know what the future brings and so I have nonchalantly made some decisions in life. Little that I know this so called 'pegangan' of mine eventually made me regret. Yes..I have to slowly admit that I've been regretting this one thing I made. Uhh..

Okay sebelum makin banyak merapu baik tido. Bye

Assalamualaikum